Are we 'supposed to' do anything at all?

I really don't know what to do. How am I supposed to contribute to the world? What am I supposed to contribute to the world? Am I supposed to write perfect pieces of code, spare, elegant and precise? Am I supposed to write a book? What kind of a book? Fiction? Non fiction? A book about what? Am I supposed to teach children how to read? Or am I supposed to teach teenagers about how computers work internally? How is an instruction actually executed in a CPU? Am I supposed to start my own company? To come up with a really cool idea and then to take it to execution, hire engineers to implement it, hire other people to market and sell it, convince people to invest in it and convince other people to buy it?


The thing is that no one is really 'supposed to' do anything. There is no such thing as destiny. I am not predestined to do something, its not all laid out in such a way that I am compelled to walk down a particular path irrespective of whether I want to or not. There is no Master Plan for the Universe where everyone's role is pre-decided.


The God described in Genesis, I am might sorry to say, doesn't make any sense to me. If He created Adam and Eve and gave them humanly desires not to mention human curiosity, then it is really cruel of Him to dangle the Tree of Knowledge before them 24-7-365 and then not expect them to want a bite of the apple. That's like knowingly setting them up to fail. How could He even expect obedience from creatures designed to be what they were, what we all are?

Genesis reminds me of all those tortuous tests my progenitor would put me through, saying things like if you're really my daughter and you really love me, you'll eat this completely impossible piece of meat (or similar crap). What a way to mess up a 5 year old's mind!